Starting a blog entry seems to always be tricky for me, especially when its been a ridiculous amount of time away from doing it. It's hard to know where to begin...so lets start with the first thing that pops into my head.
Love.
Here's a little story to start. Once upon a time there was a girl, who never really knew what being in love was like. She thought she did, when one prince charming came into the scene. It was magical and heart throbbing and made her giddy, but one day it came to an end. It was obvious it was time to move on. Then, one day she met another boy at lets say, a volleyball game. At first, she wasn't sure what to think. Who was this long haired boy that somehow caught her interest all of a sudden. After quickly deciding to give it a try she let him into her life. Plain and simple, she found out what love really was. She learned it was okay to make mistakes with her words, to know that she didn't have to try to say everything right all the time. She learned that she could be crazy and outgoing and still be accepted. Even though she may of said things that she shouldn't have, or perhaps made a situation worse than it really was, she was still loved by him. She figured out that she didn't have to be the most mature person to be in love, but that by being love she grew to understand what was mature and appropriate. He made her realize what she looked for in a guy. Little things started to make her happy such as it raining outside, blankets, or candles. ha. Doing something all the time wasn't required, but cuddling was. Being how love stories are, there was of course, a catch. They were allowed to fall in love, but they weren't allowed for anything more than just that. Reality smacked them in the face as they realized separating ways was something that had to be done. They wanted paths that would eventually lead them to different places and eventually break them apart. Being mature was what she needed to do but she disregarded anything besides what her heart told her to do. Stay in love.
So she did, and so did he. Realizing the road was long she went crazy thinking of ways to make it work. Resisting it at all costs to fight the outcome that they both knew needed to happen. Still fighting to do what was needed with what they wanted, eventually they broke off their paths knowing inevitably they would connect from time to time and that that was alright.
It goes deeper than that. Much. Being in love is something someone can not just get over in a few months. Maybe not even in a year.
Countless love songs, poems, even relationships you see in real life, show examples of how love can be. Until you really experience it, you never really know how it's gonna feel or what impact is has on a person. Being in love is one of the best things God has given us. Being in love, and having love is such a gift. Love in itself proves to me that God exists. To feel for someone, experience joy and happiness, to feel one, to feel cared for, to feel at peace is such a big blessing. Sometimes love can hurt, but I'm thankful for the opportunity to of known what it's like. Saying this, it should also be said to be careful with love. Be careful who you fall in love with. Sometimes, you can't help it, other times perhaps you can. The answer to this is pray. Get into that relationship with Jesus that he is offering and hold onto it. My relationship with Jesus Christ has become so much stronger through all of this. Countless prayers have been spoken and answered. I'm still working on letting go of control. God is so much more than someone I want to tell all my problems too, I am learning to build this relationship with Jesus because that's what Jesus wants, is a relationship with us. He is a friend, a father, and someone who will always be there. God is Love. Who knows love better than him? Everyday I pray I will do God's will, sometimes It gets cloudy, but I know he's always there. Being patient and understanding. None of us deserve God's love, but he gives it all the same. The boy in the story is someone I deeply care for and love, and to think that God's love for us is a million times more than that is amazing to me.
Having this love story, makes me think about my relationship with Jesus and the love he has for us. How painful it is to be denied, and how painful it must be for Jesus for those who deny him. He has saved us from our sins so that we may be connected with him again and have a relationship with him. It's that simple. His love is ongoing! I'll never be able to grasp the magnitude of his love. Point is, we are called to love, and when we run into problems we must lean on him for support. He is there. Thank you Jesus you are and thank you for love and for healing.
Just my thoughts for now.
